BLACKBERRY please~

I WANT BLACKBERRY !!!

da lama da cakap nak pakai..

tapi...

tak pakai² pown !!!

saketnye hati !!!

JELES je tengok org laen sume pakai BB !!

DIA pown da pakai BB !!!

DIA beli BB BOLD 3 !!!

sampai nanges NANA dibuatnya masa NANA dapat tau DIA da beli BB !! :'(

PELIK kan????

nanges sebab dapat tau DIA pakai BB !!!

grr~

ntah pape je NANA nie !!

ada x sape2 yang berMURAH HATI nak bagi kat nana SEBIJIK BB nie??

sape yg hutang birthday present ????

nak tuntut nie !!!

BENCI ~~

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MUMMY DADDY !!!!!!!!!!

ANAKMU INI NAK PAKAI BB !!!

pleaseeeeeee~

xmo larh bg 1001 nye alasan !!!!!!

sume org bg pandangan yg POSITIF r...

-diyanazuhaili-

i put the blame on u !

when this happen to me,

I PUT THE BLAME ON YOU !!!!

u know why ???

because...

YOU THE ONE WHO PUT ME IN THIS KIND OF SITUATION !

you just left me like that !!

terkontang - kanting sorang² mcmnie !!

terhumbang - ambing !

I DON'T HAVE HAVE ANYONE WHEN U LEFT ME !!

i don't have any BACK UP like u do !

i officially left everyone when i'm with you !

but then, u JUST left me TANPA BELAS KASIHAN !!

-diyanazuhaili-

for 'DIA' ...

kepada DIA,

NANA tau ramai yg nak kat AWAK. n NANA tau AWAK pernah ske n nak tackle that girl kan?

tp, AWAK frust sbb dulu that girl pegi kat laki laen. n now that girl da xde bf. n that girl cari AWAK balik. n in the same time, AWAK ngah rapat ngan NANA kan...

AWAK,

kalo AWAK nak kat that girl, AWAK bgtaw NANA k? n STOP GIVING ME HOPE if AWAK da ada niat nak kat that girl. NANA xnak jd org ketiga n NANA xnak AWAK serabutkan kepala AWAK tue ngan benda² mcmnie.. and NANA tau YOU NEED TIME. but, in the same time, AWAK kena gak pkir SAYA yg kat sini. SAYA jauh dr AWAK. jgn bila AWAK da bg harapan menggunung, tiba² AWAK pegi kat org lain. NANA da xnak ada dalam keadaan mcmtue. AWAK gak yg tarik NANA kuar dr masalah mcmtue dulu kan? so, xkan AWAK nak NANA ada dlm keadaan mcmtue balik.

NANA bgtaw nie sbb NANA xnak AWAK terlupa yang AWAK ngah bg harapan kat NANA. coz NANA pown mmg xde sape², EXCEPT u. AWAK je yg NANA salu contact pown selama nie. kalo AWAK nak kat that girl, AWAK just bgtaw NANA. pandai² larh lepas tue NANA nak handle diri NANA nie.

sekarang nie, after ape yg da jadi baru² nie.. NANA da takowt nak letak harapan da. maybe ada SIKIT haparan tue. but, NANA da xnak letak harapan mcmana NANA pernah letak dulu.

walau ape pown yang jd, 

NANA TETAP KAWAN AWAK ! :)

ok?

and ONCE AGAIN,

THANKS SEBAB HADIR DALAM HIDUP NANA ~

p/s : wrote on 250111. by diyana zuhaili. for 'DIA'.

-diyanazuhaili-

Thanks ye AWAK !

.220111.

from now onwards, i will REMEMBER that date. or lebih tepat 221209.

sbb on this date larh NANA kenal DIA. actually, da lama kenal kan..

tp, xpernah rapat, xpernah ada num phone pown, xpernah nak borak² and x pernah ada niat nak kenal rapat pown kan?? dulu DIA pernah contact. tp, dlm fb je. DIA selalu ngusik² nana je. tue pown melalui chatting je. then dulu DIA pernah ngadu kat NANA pasal gf DIA (now da ex). :)

but, suddenly kitaorg jadi rapat. DIA banyak teman NANA masa NANA sedeyh n down gler². DIA tau NANA bleyh wat keje gler mcmana. and maybe that's one of the reason nape DIA sentiasa temankan NANA. DIA selalu sms n call NANA walaupun DIA ngah busy ngan schedule yang agak PACK tue !

THANKS A LOT taw awak !!!

NANA hargai sangat² !!!

ape yang AWAK pernah korbankan tuk NANA, sume NANA akan ingat n hargai sangat² taw~

owh haa...
DIA larh yang kejut NANA tiap² pagi ! suruh g class ! hahaha...
alarm da bunyi, tp NANA tetap tunggu DIA yang call kejutkan NANA!!! ngade sungguh NANA nie kan? hee~ ;)

n now da genap ONE MONTH kita rapat kan?

NANA happy sangat dapat kenal ngan DIA.

happening je my life nowdays. eventho sometimes i cried.

thanks taw sbb tiba² je muncul dlm idup NANA and wat bg NANA happy.

NANA harap sangat situation nie berkekalan.. ;)

now AWAK da tau kan citer my life mcmana?

NANA da citer semuanya kan kat AWAK aritue..

THANKS A LOT sbb paham n AWAK ckp AWAK akan try tolong NANA kan..

thanks for all your advice too and also your support !

DIA pernah ckp kat NANA that ...

nanti kalo pape jadi pown DIA nak NANA terus ada ngan DIA. walaupun sekadar kawan.. n DIA happy dapat kenal ngan NANA.

NANA akan pegang kata² awak tue k?

DIA jaga NANA gler² nye r..

banyakkkk pantang larang yg dia senaraikan tuk NANA !

NANA tak dibenarkan minum minuman ber-ais !

(cold water is my FAV) !!!

NANA tak dibenarkan mandi malam² da !

NANA tak dibenarkan cakap benda yang bukan²

NANA da tak bleyh nak merepek² da !

NANA xbleyh nanges² da !

(tapi kalo awak yg wat bg saya nanges mcmana plak???)

NANA kena minum banyak SKY JUICE !!!

(x best !!!)

*actually banyak agi taw~*

DIA bg kat NANA t-shirt !!

NICE ~

jauh baju nie berjalan taw~

hee~ ;)

hanya DIA n NANA je yg tau dari mana datangnye baju nie !

hahaha.. :D

NANA x pernah ada agi baju warna striking mcmnie !

but, bila da pakai.. nampak NICE plak !

THANKS ye AWAK !! :)

pasnie bagi agi banyak² taw! hehehe.. (gurau je ok!)

owh yaa~

baju nie size XS ok!!

tkejut NANA masa tgk tue. tp, bler da sarung, mmg cun² r !

NANA nie da mengecut ke??

hahahaha..

WEIRD sungguh nie !!

what ever it is,

THANKS ONCE AGAIN AWAK !!

-diyanazuhaili-

♥ 210111. :')

it should be our 13th monthsary .... :')

i hope u'll be always happy with HER.

NANA sentiasa doakan kebahagiaan awak.

NANA sentiasa doakan kesihatan awak.

tak mau saket² da taw...

tak mau jadi seorang yg cepat marah n panas baran da taw.

bersabar dengan pe yg da jadi. n redha ok?

cuba yang tbaek n semampu awak.

NANA doakan awak sentiasa sukses n berjaya dlm karier awak taw..

kan awk jugak yg pernah ckp sy concentrate study n awak concentrate karier.

so, sy nak awak tepati kata² awak tue.. n insyaallah saya akan berjaya dalam study saya. tp, awak da mungkir 1 janji ngan saya..

xpe larh. nak wat mcmana kan..

saya TERIMA NGAN HATI YANG TERBUKA n REDHA je.. :')

don't u worry bout me k?

n mmg saya tau awak x riso pown kan? hehehe.. ;)

NANA pown tau awak da BLOCK sy dr FB awak.

xpe awak.. saya xkesah..

asalkan awak bahagia..

saya pown tumpang bahagia gak taw...

semoga awak akan mencapai apa yang awak inginkan dalam idup awak selama nie..

saya just terkilan awak x dpt nak tunggu kejap je agi.. kalo x, ape yg kita impikan, da tcapai da.. xperlu kita nak merana n menyakiti hati masing². :')

xpe larh awak.. jodoh di tangan tuhan kan? kita hanya mampu merancang. DIA yang akan tentukan...

saya pown tau awak da bahagia n idup awak mesti da best kan skrang? hee~

i'm happy for you. :)

pape pown...

ALL THE BEST IN YOUR LIFE !

" What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies between us"

p/s : i'm writing this, i'm telling this was not for u to come back to me. i'm just telling u what i feel. i never ask u to come back to me. i'm happy for my life nowdays. u've make me realize that i've lots of thing to explore in my life. tq. :)

-diyanazuhaili-

I'll Let You Go So You Can Live

this song really describe my feeling right now !!

even though its a KOREAN song, but it really nice.

the words are sooo 'ngam' with me ! :)

the lyrics after translate in English :

I'll back off so you can live
Say it directly
Looking at me
Say it looking into my eyes
Did you just say you wanted to break up?
Did you want to end it with me?
(I know) You probably got a lady
(I know) You probably got sick of me
even though the tears are rushing to me

I'll back off so you can live
That is all i can say
I'll forget you so you can live better
I'll back of so you can live
So that you will be happy without me
The Love you tossed away
You can take it
Don't leave even a trace behind and take it all
Don't even say you are sorry
Don't worry about me

Sorry My Sweety
Your lips that told me that you were going to leave
Why does it give me a reason to be angry today?
I need to stop you
The words don't go out
And you are already moving far apart

(I know) You will forget me
(I know) I will really hate you
Even though you know everything

I'll back off so you can live
That is all i can say
I'll forget you so you can live better
I'll back of so you can live
So that you will be happy without me
The Love you tossed away
You can take it
Don't leave even a trace behind and take it all
Don't even say you are sorry
Don't worry about me

(You) The reason i lived
(You) You were all i wanted
You~
It was me who only looked at you
(Why) Why are you leaving?
(Why) Why are you tossing me away?
If you were going to be like this
Why did you love me in the first
place?

Do you happen to remember that day?
That day when we first met
I still remember it
The promise you made to me
That you will only care for me
That you will only protect me
That you will only love me
I believed your lies
I believed it

(Oh) Oh Oh Oh Oh
Did you really love me?
(Oh) Oh Oh Oh Oh
No No No No
(Oh) Oh Oh Oh Oh
I'll forget so you can live better

never thought.

-180111-

i never thought that i'll cry again !

owh DAMN !

i cried too much on that nite.

OUCH !! it's hurt ! it REALLY HURT me !

MY FEELING !

1stly, i cried coz I MISS HIM !!
yes !! him !!!

i donno y. but, i do miss him ! y he suddenly came across my mind ???

WHY ???

i really do HATE this feeling !

i REALLY DON'T want to feel this feeling anymore !

coz it's only gonna HURT me !

aaargggggghhhhhh~

2ndly, coz someone. NOT someone. but TWO person !

i thought they will always make me smile n laugh.

but, semua tue da brubah. da ilang.

NANA xtaw camne TERGAMAK nye korang bleyh ckp camtue kat NANA..

NANA TAK PERNAH mintak korang wat pape or korban pape pown tuk NANA !!!

TAK PERNAH ok !!!

NANA rasa NANA selalu marah je kalo korang nak wat pape tuk NANA..

NANA mmg TAK BOLEH terima langsung pe yg korang cakapkan tue!

HATI DAN PERASAAN TAK DAPAT DIUKUR DGN TAHAP PENDIDIKAN KITA !!!

HATI DAN PERASAAN TAK DAPAT DIBANDINGKAN DGN SIJIL YANG KITA ADA !!!

DIPLOMA, DEGREE ?? FEELING KITA NIE ADA KE TAHAP PENGAJIAN MCMTUE ? MCM YG KITA BLAJAR KAT UNIVERSITI, KOLEJ ?? 

kalo mcmtue, bdak yg just blajar sampai SPM, hati dan perasaan diaorg pown setakat SPM je ke???

silap haribulan, bdak yg blajar takat SPM tue larh yg bleyh paham hati n perasaan seseorang tue. lagi EXPERT dr org yg ada DIPLOMA AND DEGREE !!!

NANA bkn nak mjatuhkan ke ape ke tp benda² nie cam x masuk akal langsung taw!

NANA MMG X BLEYH TERIMA LANGSUNG BENDA NIE!!!

OKKAY! LET'S STOP BOUT THIS !

wat saket hati je cter pasal nie !!

NOW I ONLY LEFT ONE GUY !

ONE 'DIA' !!

DIA yang selalu teman NANA nowdays !

walaupown dia BZ ngan schedule yang agak HECTIC,

but DIA always be for me !
DIA tetap cari masa tuk txt and call me !
thanks awak sebab hadir dalam hidup saya n wat bg saya senyum with ur sms n all your jokes tue !

owh yaa...

saya RINDUkan awak !!! :'(

p/s : moga² kita cepat ketemu yaa.. :)

-diyanazuhaili-

confession.

I MISS U GUYS SO MUCH !!!!

:'(

i guess i miss u guys so much because u guys are the only persons that really can make me laugh so much n truly from my heart. bukan buat-buat punya gelak..


NANA tau that u guys pown rindukan NANA kan?? coz bleyh kata everyday u guys ckp u guys rindu NANA.. bestnye ada org rindu! hee~ (perasan!)

i hope we'll meet as soon as possible aite?

because i really need you guys..

i need you guys to make me happy. make me laugh as usual.

but, yg paling NANA kesian kan seseorang tue.. dia mesti selalu pening ngan perangai NANA.. hahaha..

ada je yg dia complain kalo dia da betul-betul x paham.

nana sendiri pown x paham ngan perangai NANA.. haa.. macamana tue??

harap awak bersabar larh ye.. NANA memang mcmnie.. ;)

sebenarnya saya kesiankan awak.. tp nak wat mcmana.. da saya mmg mcmnie!

owh yaa... saya RINDUKAN family awak jugak!!! :D

sebenarnya kan....

i like ur childish character.

i like ur 'girlish' n 'childish' voice. hahaha.. (jgn marah) !

i like u 'girl girl' leg. ;)  (siyes mcm ppuan ok) !!

i like ur 'anak manja' character.

i like the way u always make me laugh.

i like the way u make ur own words, spellings, n phrase !

seriously NANA ckp u are so lucky to be born in that family my dear..

ur family are really nice n sweet..

untung sangat okkay..

so, u have to appreciate them ok?

love them as much as they love u !

REMEMBER MY ADVICE NIE !!

♥♥♥ till we meet again!! ♥♥♥


p/s :


ehemm!

korang sedarkan guys tue ada 'S'.. that's mean more than 1 kan?? so, it means that i don't have any serious relationship rite now. n it also mean that i'm not ready for any relationship. just friends. close friends. get to know each other well. its great actually to get to know more new people. its interesting!

and owh yaa! my single life sangat-sangat interesting! rasa cam bebas gler! xde sape nak control! kalo ada pown, diaorg just bg nasihat n ingatan. that's all. yg baek akan NANA ambek..

SUMPAH EXTRA thanks gler kat mamat yg wat bg nana STATUS SINGLE nie! nana rasa cam da lama x single n x enjoy life mcmnie! hee~ ;)

-diyanazuhaili-